New medication, New Therapist and a Couple More Updates
It's no surprise to anyone I haven't been as focused on my blog as I once was. There has been a distinct lack of posts and to be honest I forgot why I started blogging in the first place.
Since then I made a rash decision to come off of the Sertraline that I was I was taking. I had been back on it for around six months and honestly, I wasn’t seeing the impact that I felt I should be with taking an antidepressant. I was still feeling quite depressed majority of the time, the medication was having a negative impact on my mood and sleep and much more and I felt it would be better to be off of it than on it so I made the decision to stop without consulting my doctor or anyone else (I don’t advise to do this, the main reason I didn’t consult anyone was because I’ve come off Sertraline multiple times in the past as many people will know).
At first, I felt a lot better and I had a pretty great week and then unfortunately and completely out of my control I caught a vomiting and diarrhoea bug which sent me into a depressive episode and quite quickly following my illness my anxiety returned tenfold. Yay!
In the midst of all of this I was supposed to go away with all the family for a weekend at Centre Parcs but with my declining Mental Health I made it halfway there before having to turn my car around and come home being unable to push through the severe anxiety I was suffering from and which also brought on another depressive episode.
I ended up missing out on a weekend I was very much looking forward to and even though I have missed out on a lot of things over the years due to my health issues it never gets any easier.
Following that weekend I realised although the sertraline hadn’t been what I needed it to be, I needed to be on some antidepressant to combat the anxiety and depression so I went back to the GP and asked to be prescribed Fluoxetine (Prozac), this was the recommend antidepressant I try before going back on Sertraline last year.
I’ve now been on the Fluoxetine for just over three weeks and it has been a tough few weeks, to say the least, due to side effects and getting used to the chemicals in my brain being messed around with, only now do I start to feel as though things are perking up again with the side effects subsiding, a few more weeks and I should start to the see the benefits of the Fluoxetine.
During this time the therapist I was recommended to, by the Psychiatrist, finally got in contact. A relief to say the least! I was hoping going private with a therapist again would be a speedier process but I guess sometimes these things happen and at the end of the day compared to the NHS, it was a lot quicker!
First impressions, the women I was seeing was lovely and was very easy to talk to, not that I really have any problems speaking to anyone anyway. Luckily, this time she had notes passed over from the psychiatrist so it wasn't like every other time I had seen a new therapist.
The only issue I had was I was recommended to this particular therapist thinking they would be able to help me with all the problems discussed and diagnosed by the psychiatrist. Unfortunately, they didn't offer DBT therapy which was specifically created to help with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorders. So we ended up leaving the session with her helping me find a potential DBT therapist to fully explore my options before making a decision with therapy going forward.
Definitely not ideal but some people never fail to surprise you with how they are willing to go above and beyond to help others.
More unfortunate news though, with my highly increased anxiety and with the difficult time I was having getting on the new medication, there was no DBT therapists in a close vicinity and even now at the time of writing this I am unable to travel far distances so DBT was out of the window for the time being until my anxiety was under control again.
Rather then waiting and hoping this would sort itself with just the medication it seemed the best course of action was to start with the therapist I had already seen as she could help me with the depression and anxiety side of things and if in the future DBT was something I needed then I could explore it down the line.
So I booked my first appointment for yesterday and with much difficulty, I successfully made it even with the changed offices from the first appointment I had nearly a month ago.
I guess it’s not been all bad then, even though my brain likes to tell me it has!
A Couple of Updates With The Blog
As I said at the start I’ve been slacking on the blogging and I’d forgot that I originally started this to share my story and my journey and I really want to get back to doing so.
From now on you can expect a new post every week, keeping everyone more closely updated with my journey and how I’m getting on, not just with the medication, therapy and recovery in general but how everyday life is going living with my illnesses.
Also, I’ve got a bunch of other mental health related posts in the works that I’m excited to share with you guys and gals.
On top of that, you can expect more photography blog posts and I’ve got a new fashion & style blog post collaboration coming very soon!
As always much love.