There are these brief moments..

 

There are these brief moments throughout the day where I forget. 

I forget everything going on. I forget the pain, the suffering, the struggle to do anything, the emptiness, the worry, the fatigue, being mentally drained, the lack of motivation and anything else that suffocates me on a daily basis.

Those brief moments are peaceful. I feel normal again. I get excited again. I start to plan again. I start to feel again. I start to.. and it’s gone again. 

It is never-ending. 

It is draining.

I’m exhausted.

All whilst I am supposed to be going about everyday life. 

Building back a life which has been wrecked and ruined by all of the above.

Continuously trying whatever it may be to make it better.

Hoping it will end.

- EK