Catton Hall

We all have those days where we wake up with a plan, then that plan doesn’t play out as we had expected and then we feel disappointed. That's exactly what happened yesterday. Catton Park is literally on a few miles away from where I am living at the moment…

Dead Trees

I was back home for a couple of days a few weeks ago and there is this place about a mile away from my home which I have driven past literally thousands of times and I always thought looked pretty cool and that I should check it out sometime…

A Frosty Morning

For the record, I can’t stand the cold and I am not the biggest fan of winter but waking up to it being white over with frost (it would have been better with snow as a large portion of the rest of the UK had) I couldn’t help but get a little bit excited…

Alrewas, UK

I’ve been making lots of progress recently and as I start to rebuild my life I have been trying to do more and more each day. I am currently living at my Uncle and Auntie’s house for multiple reasons which I will go into further in another post but for the most part, this has allowed me to make the progress I have been seeing…

I Feel Alive Again

It’s a typical morning given my current circumstances. I am taking my morning walk, something I had started doing 4 months prior as part of therapy to get me out of the house and to start to learn to manage my anxiety. It is winter and the air is cold against my face. The weather forecast had predicted sun but with heavy cloud cover, it is barely light…

Lowepro Tahoe BP 150 Camera Bag

As my camera gear is growing it has become increasingly difficult to juggle everything as I try to leave the house to go out and shoot. Sometimes its a couple of trips to the car and back or I take the risk of putting everything in my normal rucksack and hoping nothing gets scratched or broken. One is time-consuming and the other could potentially be costly…

Nikon 35mm f/1.8 - My First Prime Lens

I’ve been looking to add to my lens collection for some time now, especially as I am looking to pursue photography more and more, not only has a hobby but as a potential career in the future. Last year I got my hands on the Nikon 55-200mm f/4-5.6, this was my first lens as I ventured out and moved on from using the kit lens. The lens is considerably bigger and heavier and gives you a completely different focal length to play around with…

Accepting I May Always Suffer From Anxiety

Since I was 10 years old, maybe even younger, I have dreamed of a life without anxiety, even before I knew it was anxiety I was suffering from. This thing has consumed every part of my life, caused me to suffer from depression, lead me to find myself at rock bottom, too many times to count, and all before I was 23 years of age. I wanted it gone. I’ve suffered so much I felt my life was no longer worth living…

2018 - A Year in Review

2018 has seemed to go on forever. Looking back I can barely even remember the start of the year. It is almost as if the first half of the year didn’t exist apart from a few small events taking place. Reflecting on this year, as it draws to a close, I can’t decide if it has been a good year or a bad year so I broke it down into a few topics I mainly want to talk about..

Walton-on-Trent, UK

So the last week I’ve spent at my aunties and uncles house in Walton-on-Trent whilst they’ve been away on holiday. The opportunity to get away for a bit whilst still relatively close to home was just what I’ve needed. I’ve spent some time here over the last few years when I’ve needed to and I’ve been meaning to come and spend some time here again..

Repton, UK

This weekend I went from the lowest of lows to a complete mentality switch and finally felt ready to start taking the next step in my recovery. I’ve had some setbacks recently, the first being ill and then an increase in anxiety and having an influx of panic attacks that left me trying to maintain everything I had put in place and no longer moving forward…

Willington, UK

Every morning for the last few weeks I have been venturing out for a walk as part of my recovery. It came as part of tackling some safety behaviours and taking my anxiety with me rather than continuously trying to run away and avoid it. Anxiety has left my world so small I generally don’t leave the house all that much and when I do I am met with intense amounts of anxiety…

Documenting My Recovery Through Photography

This whole journey of blogging started around mental health and my mental illnesses that I have come to learn of. I have tried to bring people along as best as possible, although for one reason or another I have changed up the way I do things or taken periods of time away from sharing anything…

Why My Blog Has Been Lacking Content Lately

Sometimes our health, both out physical and mental health, gets in the way of the things we love the most. A bit part of my blog has revolved around mental health and my mental illnesses in particularly but I enjoy creating content around my other passions just as much…

Through The Lens | August '18

It has been a bit of a slow month with the photography to be honest. I've had lots of difficulties with my stomach which has kept me from getting out as much as I would like but nether the less I am quite happy with the images I have captured…